The dull, wet December 2015 darkness made the front room and the scattered belongings, packing boxes and old furniture within it, even more sad and dreary than it actually was. The faint glow of Christmas lights shone from behind the closed blinds that kept the outside world, outside. Hanging alone from the top dead centre […]
It was wrapped in a huge, light blue, plastic tarpaulin and cocooned around the edges in cheap rolls of light brown packing tape that kept the gaps closed. I looked at it one last time before I made the final wrap and slowly the dark brown leather disappeared into mummification for what I thought would […]
As far as new changes, challenges and new problems arising through month 5 of my bankruptcy, nothing has really happened. The vehicle company took the car last month and I have heard nothing since. Being car-less in 2017, and for the first time in almost 30 years is a challenge. Never again will I moan […]
The monthly update on the start of the Fifth month of bankruptcy. Very little to report really. I had a few more computer generated letters earlier in the month of October from the car finance people, but they were passed straight onto the Insolvency Agency to deal with. Another company has bought a debt from […]
It is windy outside. It is howling around the bedroom window of the 15th Century building that my friends are allowing me to stay in with them while my life starts to slowly settle itself into a new single, bankrupt and as yet, unemployed life. The wind is making its way through the gaps in […]
PART 2. The Christmas and New Year flashed by and I can only remember snap shots of it, assisted only by the memory on my iPhone which recorded the odd photograph and text over those days. I remember one particular night spent with my cousins where I literally just didn’t speak. I had been trying […]
I thought seriously about killing myself. There, I have said it. It’s not something I ever thought I would hear myself say or indeed admit to, but I have now. It’s out there, done, it has now been said. I have had a dark couple of years, but I’m still here. I’m in a […]
There is a man in my home town, (I say ‘home town’ but increasingly I am beginning to believe that my time there is counting down to another move away from bitter memories and toward a fresh start) that collects spiders and moths in jars from around the town centre. A tall, dark, chiselled jawed […]
If you’ve read my previous posts, you’ll know that my bankruptcy wasn’t caused by my own financial mismanagement. I had an issue at work in which my employer thought (and was proved incorrectly) that I had broken some rules and they reported me to the Police and also my licensing authority. I’m a professional who […]
Sat in a cafe in North London yesterday, I re-read a text message I was sent the previous night from someone I love and respect dearly. The reason I had to re-read it was simply that when it came through and my eyes darted left and right over the black letters on a grey background, […]
The ramblings of a bankrupt. 