Sat in the rain on a muddy canal bank in Lancashire, my hands smelling of wet maggots, nails dirty with fish slime and my breath smelling of stewed Tetley Tea decanted from my Dads, Tartan patterned, glass filled work flask, I cursed as the long slender lines of a bright green narrowboat slowly chugged right […]
OCTOBER 2018. An audible ‘ping’ on my smartphone alerted my attention to a change of my roster at work. I have been here now for 4 months learning about the company, learning the technical aspects of the Aircraft they want me to fly and sitting yet more exams to prove it has sunk into this […]
The house was cold and dark and the key was unfamiliar to my touch as it slid into the lock. A new build house of about 15 years old, it had one of these new multi lever security doors that require not only the key to be turned, but also the handle to be […]
I am sat in a field in Northern France. I’m not moving at all, it is silent and I can see the rolling, green and pleasant countryside for miles in just about all directions. Looking left I can see a beautiful, resplendent old stone farm complex with pale blue wooden shutters keeping out the […]
I feel lost. I have lost faith in many things over the last few years, but my ability to keep going, keep plodding and keep fighting is still unwavering. Yet I still feel lost. It is as if I have a compass and know the direction I need to travel, but don’t have a […]
As far as new changes, challenges and new problems arising through month 5 of my bankruptcy, nothing has really happened. The vehicle company took the car last month and I have heard nothing since. Being car-less in 2017, and for the first time in almost 30 years is a challenge. Never again will I moan […]
The monthly update on the start of the Fifth month of bankruptcy. Very little to report really. I had a few more computer generated letters earlier in the month of October from the car finance people, but they were passed straight onto the Insolvency Agency to deal with. Another company has bought a debt from […]
It is windy outside. It is howling around the bedroom window of the 15th Century building that my friends are allowing me to stay in with them while my life starts to slowly settle itself into a new single, bankrupt and as yet, unemployed life. The wind is making its way through the gaps in […]
Just a quick blog with reference to my 3rd month of bankruptcy. Not much to report really. I still have a working bank account and a working pre paid Monzo Debit card, so life seems ‘fairly’ normal, besides of course, from not having any salary or savings that is. My £73 ($95) per week from […]
I thought seriously about killing myself. There, I have said it. It’s not something I ever thought I would hear myself say or indeed admit to, but I have now. It’s out there, done, it has now been said. I have had a dark couple of years, but I’m still here. I’m in a […]
The ramblings of a bankrupt. 